Hope @ Humber

Holy Cow!

What a very contradictory day I've had today.  My math is so terrible that I scored a pathetic 2/10 & 3/10 on both my online math quizzes this morning, but my writing's so good that not only am I being looked at for exemption from my COMM (communications) class; they're actually looking at me to tutor other students in their writing.

Wierd much?

It's funny how the mind works.  Our different styles of learning and information processing can lead us to such successes in some areas, while others seem to illude us so entirely, our class mates can often think of us as dumb, or uneducated.

Don't get me wrong, I'm doing really well in most of my classes, but the math is just way over my head.  I actually wrote to my math teacher and asked if i could drop the 220 series of math and go to a lower level where I could keep up a bit more with the classes.  I expected to hear back from her with an alternate course selection, but low and behold, she did me one better and offered to tutor me personally.

WOW!

How lucky am I to have the head of our college math department teach me in a one on one setting?

And as for the tutoring opertunity- WOW again!

I told my prof, several times actually, that I can't spell to save my life.  His comment was simply that I'd be teaching sentence structure, grammar, writing formats and showing people how to express thier ideas and thoughts in writing, not working on their spelling or proof reading anything for them.

All of this brings me back again to the mind and how it all works.

How does it work exactly?

Why do you suppose, does someone like me who can pour their thoughts and ideas into the written word, and make peotry, short stories and written works of art come so clearly and naturally, have such a difficult time working within more structured disciplines like math and science?

Obviously math and science are geared towards different thought patterns and brain funtions, but I obseve this in myself frequently with anything remotely structured, like spelling for example.  Even though I'm able to write an essay and make coheirent well thought, gramatically correct sentences, I can't spell a darn thing.

Why?

My creativity exceeds the written word, in art and creative thoughts spanning most of my daily life, but no concrete forms of thinking pop up anywhere in there.

this realization has made me think very hard about my chosen field of business as a whole.  Along with the notice that most people in business are money driven, power hungry individuals and that's just so taotally not me, I'm honestly wondering if I could even stand in that world and remain who I am, faithful to my own values and belifes?

When I was younger people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.  I always said a singer, and after a while that changed.  After even more time it became very simplied, all I wanted was to be happy.  Now I want the same thing in life, happiness and security for my family.  AM I on the right path?

Who knows.  But I'm surely happy at the moment, flaws and all.  Breathing in new life and posibilities with all the help and encouragement I recive at Humber.

We, all of us, have strengths and weaknesses.  Our goal is to build on our strengths and improve in our weaker areas, creating a more well rounded and better functioning self, who ever we may be.

I look forward to improving my math, and helping others in their lives where ever possible.

It is now time for bed my friends, Gnite & thank you Humber for all your help